Far Far Away

Do you miss me? Do you miss my silliness? My innocence?? Do you still love me? Remember the first time we met? You had such beautiful eyes. You were laughing and smiling. You were intrigued and curious. I felt loved for the first time in my life. I felt wanted for not who I was, but for who I wanted to be. Why don’t you look at me like that anymore?

You remember the book I gave you? You liked it a lot, you said. Am I like that book? A book that you once loved but now you don't enjoy reading it anymore. In your defense, it’s only the hundredth time you are reading it.

“People change,” I warned you. I should have warned myself.

We who were fortunate enough to love, are also unfortunate enough to feel their loss. You know how it feels to lose a loved one, don’t you?

You are so strong. I admired you. I never wanted to be your burden however. I never wanted to make you feel tired. Maybe I was the one who killed you. Murdered you out of sheer ignorance. Killed you in cold blood. I am sorry. I truly am.

I hope you fled my clenches. Escaped far away. Where none can see you. Tucked away in that beautiful corner of your mind. I hope you can love again. I hope you heal the ones you love, like you healed me. But I hope there you can finally be happy.